Lead Me

Sometimes you see or hear something that kind of puts things in perspective in your life. Sometimes it can be something you hear or see ALL the time, but all of a sudden it hits you in a different way. I had a moment like that this week. I heard a song I have heard over and over, but this week I really HEARD the song.



Sanctus Real - “Lead Me"
I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

It is easy to see this in a Husband/Father role, but it is so much more than that. I do need my husband to be the leader of the family. But, HE can't do it alone either! There are times that I get so exhausted, stressed. frustrated and just want to give up. I need him there to pick me up, encourage me and help me. At the same time, there are times he gets exhausted, stressed, frustrated and wants to give up. Doesn't he deserve to have someone there to pick him up, encourage him and help him?

I also look at this from a parent/child role. They need someone to lead them and it cannot all fall on the father. Sometimes I wonder if I do enough. As a stay at home mom I am always here with them, but am I really HERE? Or do I spend too much time just trying to make it through another day? Do I REALLY hear what they are saying? Do I really take an interest in what they are doing? When they ask to do something with me do I too frequently say "some other time?"

I can really relate to this song because of the number of years my husband was gone traveling for work so often. I many times have said those words and wondered what it was all for. As hard as it was to pack up our family and move to Louisiana, I KNOW without a doubt it was the right choice. It was our way of fighting for our family and showing our children that the chase is not worth it if we are not ALL in it together and that their happiness is important and that we want them to feel loved.

So, all I can do is pray! Pray that the Lord will lead me to be the wife I am supposed to be. To help me never let my husband wonder if he is the love of my life. To actually LIVE our life, instead of just going through the motions of life. Help me let him know without a doubt that I can be his rock as much as I need him to be mine.

And that I can also be the mother I am supposed to be. To always let my children know that they are wanted, loved and worthy of my time and attention. Help me show them that they never have to look for that love or attention somewhere else. Open my ears more and my mouth less. Help me realize and remember that sometimes they don't want or need a solution, but just someone to talk to and be understanding of what they are going through.

I know I will make mistakes. I just pray that they will forgive me and that I can forgive myself and learn from them.

Mostly, I just pray that the Lord will lead me with HIS strong hands and make me the best person I can be for my family so that my children can grow up and be the best people they can be. Sometimes it can be really hard, but it is a fight worth fighting!